Thank you all so much for being so supportive to a new blogger. Thank you for accepting me into the Blogger Family, it is such an honor. I greatly appreciate you all and look forward to a long lasting e-lationship. Let us to continue to share our life experiences, agree to disagree, and lift one another up in the time of need. We are all family no matter where we come from, as we are all God’s children.
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I am starting to take the social media networks seriously and came to a determination that I need to start giving back and to share my personal experiences with the world, raw and unfiltered.
A few months I started a YouTube Channel and am looking for subscribers.
New Content coming soon that will be based on self-certainty and taking back control of your life and putting yourself first regards of who your family, friends, peers, coworkers, spouse, or other social ties are.
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To me another month means one step closer to another year. Here we come 2021 and another step closer to obtaining a doctor status and identity. This year, 2020, seemed that everyday ran into each other, given that we have had to face physical and social restriction. Don’t get me wrong, I love being at home, so being home suited me well.
Self-Induced Stress, Anxiety, and Depression
As I got busier with school works, house chores, and other projects, and more, I noticed a shift in my mental state and attitude. I found myself feeling a bit uncertain. I noticed that my attitude and behaviors were changing for the worst. I noticed that even though I love being home, being home for too long can take a toll on you mentally and physically. Yep, I gained a couple of pounds as well which now makes me look at myself differently. For a couple of months now, I have contributed to my self-induced stress and anxiety, which has started to transform into a depressive state, or bipolarism. Because I started to take on more than I should have, I these various projects shifted me. Wine use to settle my nerves, but when I noticed that I was consumng more wine than I should. Somewhere around three o’clock, I poured up a tall glass of wine and sat in front of the computer screen and television and contiued to work.
Henceforth, Dinner was always ready around six o’clock even though some days I didn’t eat whereby leaving the filled plate sitting on the table.
I noticed that I started to fill the void with wrong things, things that were debilitating and sometimes becoming angry at my choices and myself in its entirety. Being stressed or depressed is real and I am here to testify that we bring these situations on ourselves, because we take on more than we can bare, we are too busy thinking about what others think of us; we are too busy trying to please others, some who don’t have our best interest, and we don’t say no, which results in us doing things that we don’t want to or have not interest in doing.
Change Is in The Making
In September I have decided to take back my mental health and physical well-being. I have decided that it is my ultimate responsibility to take back my life and be there person that I want desire to be. I have decides that I am culpable for my life choices and behaviors. Here are a list of things that I decide to change, starting with a complete transformation of ME. There are the steps that I will engage in to take back my life and to become a better ME:
It all starts with, ME, by doing the following:
Shift gears. Shifting gears means transforming myself internally and externally. I am tired of riding in neutral or riding in the passenger seat of others. Now is the time for me to take the wheel, as this is the only way that I will be able to research my desired destination.
Sustain a positive mentality and aura. I have been so negative lately. Speaking negative about myself and relationship, my capabilities and skills. Deep down inside I knew and know that this was not the person I was supposed to be portraying. This was not me intrinsically. I have started to believe others definitions of me and who I was supposed to be. Some of these feelings stemmed from the BLM movement. Allowing others to tell me what I cannot do or shouldn’t do was only a method to steer me off my path, to hold me back, and restrict me from moving forward. I have eliminated that negative energy from my life and for whomever tell me that I am not worthy will not be a part of my life or inner/soical circle. This is the time that everyone in the world should want to go places, as tomorrow is not promised to anyone, even those in good health. We are here today and gone tomorrow. The elimination of negativity can transition you life in righteous ways and take you places mentally and physcally that you never thought were possible.
Set Goals and follow through. There is nothing like settings goals and not putting forth the effort to spring them into action. We all desire to be better humans. We all have an innate desire to be more social. Setting goals means that your are seeking life longevity, to release your negative inner thoughts, to be your true and authentic self, so become more educated, start your own company, or whatever you desire to be. Setting goals means writing them down and putting them in a place where you have a constant reminder. Don’t write them down and then file them away. Write them down and leave it out, visibly and coherently. Writing down goals mean that you are being realistica about what it is you want to accomplish. Never set goals to high where you know for yourself that they are impossible. Goals are meant to be fulfilled and edits if necessarily. Its not a crime to set the bar high, but reach a certain level and then turn it up a notch, thus it becomes a new goal. Setting goals means that know what is important and you order them not only in the order of importance, but in the order in which you have available resources. Setting goals is not a hard task. Setting goals does not means you have to write them all down in a single day. Setting goals that does not mean that you have to fulfill them all in a single day. Setting goals means that you don’t look or wait for others to tell you what you need to do. Setting goals means you know what you want in life and you know what you need to do-and not do-to get there.
Being more assertive. Telling people how I feel and what I want is long overdue. I have been the person to go with the flow as long as its something that does not go against my morals and values or violate my ethics, boundaries, and mental state. Telling others what you want and how you feel does not have to be done in a disrepectful manner, as the delivery should be constructive and respectful. It should also be transparent and concerting. Telling others what you want does not have to start a fight or transform friendships or relationships into enemy-ships. We all know what we want and know what we need to do to make ourselves happy first. If no one can respect that, then that person or thing do not belong in your life. Move on.
Continuing my education and use my skills to teach others. I have been in school for the past fourteen years and I have obtained a number of degrees, certifications, and knowledge. I have been employed a Fortune 500 companies, and I appreciate my personal experiences. However, I have reached a point in my life to where its time to give back. I have been focusing on the underpresented and underserved population, digital divides, and inequities. I have learned that astuteness and skills should never go to waste and should be shared and passed on to teach others. To open a new door for those that come behind you or desire to be a better person in life. I have learned that it is not always the individuals fault, as sometimes society is to blame where people with great potential are held back due to impecunous situations and circumstances. I learned that me as an individual need to do better, and know that I can do better.
Give back. This goes back to me giving back to those that follow in my footsteps and for those who lack appropriate guidance and steering. Acquiring a high educational level should not go to waste, as it can and should be used for the benefit of others. This means sharing my experiences and knowledge. This means putting myself out there in the world for people to see, even that naysayers and haters. It is not until you have haters that you know that you have made it. So, with that, they will only be the fuel that continues to light the fire within me.
Write more. I started this blog only a few months ago but I want to do more. I have started to engage in various writing activities that will allow me to be noticed as a reputable scholar, hence submitting writings to journal articles for publication. I have started to write a fiction-based book, as well as a Self Help book that will aid in others becoming their authentic self, as not becoming the person that you yearn to be is not the fault of others. Not being or becoming the person that you yearn to be is because you have done what is necessary to get there.
Collaborate. I have started to seek out collaborative opportunities with others who share my same interests. This will not only help my academic reputation, but will aid with collaboration with others in publications and empirical research, it will open doors to new adventures.
This is a new month, going on a new year, and they will continue with or without us present. If you want to leave a footprint, other than a digital one, then [I]we have to start to make the necessary moves in order to do that. Whatever it was that has held you back from reaching your full potential let it go. Set goals, change your mindset, surround yourself with positive influencers, and go-getters. Stop settling for your current existence especially when you know your potential. We must always remember that a new you mean being a better you. You attract the energy that you put out. You are responsible for your own life and journey. Make the most of it even if it means being selfless and sharing your experiences and what you have learned throughout the years.
What are some things that you wish to accomplish this year?
For so long I have wanted to cut my hair but was afraid that I would look crazy. I have been down the natural and textured journey-wait is there an in between. Well, earlier this year I texlaxed my hair and thought it was contribute to my sense of happiness but it did not. I texturized my dark hair tressed because I felt that it would increase the manageability of its natural state. Well, little did I know, that after all of these year-me being natural for over ten year-is that processed hair is no different. It takes TLC and is still time consuming. Going to the hair dressers every other week just to sit there for hours and allow someone else to fumble and fiddle around with your strands, not being sure that you will be satisfied with the result.
OMG the stylist is late and I have been waiting here for hours.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, here stands a girl who is about to be bald?
These are my end results, with the exception of an inch or two from total baldness. I was hesitant to cut my hair at first, but when I sat back and thought about it, I envisioned myself to be in a revolving circle of asking myself the same question over and over again. Why in the heck to I want to hang onto a head full of damage hair. I did go back and forth for a matter of minutes and my husband telling me to sleep on it and not to making an rational decisions. Uh. I have been sleeping on this ideal for a couple of years now. I had even went out of the to by some expensive shears to assist in the process.
She did that…
I stood in the mirror trying to picture the end results. But then stopped overthinking because it would have only led me to putting the shears away and holding onto an impairable mane. I cut… I cut some more… and then some more… and before I know it all of my hair was in the sink and I was bald.
OMG. I have never felt my head my entire life. This actually feels really good. I feel free and liberated.
Its interesting because people are always going to look at your a certain way regardless of you hair texture or how long or short it is. When I cut my hair I did it for me. Not to please another person, not for medical reason, and not for the sake of doing something. I did it for who? ME. I felt a dire need to start fresh and anew and this is just a starting point, whose to know what’s to come next. I feel that my life can only get better and I am willing to take the necessary steps to get there. Yes, I was confident, beautiful, and a showstopper when I had hair, but guess what, I always had it covered up with some formality of a wig, which I am sure contributed to the damaging effect.
Yes, its not about shoes and clothes in a close. We own wig closets-Closets full of wigs and weaves.
Wigs and Weaves
I have so many wigs, because I am a person that gets bored with my hair. I have one wig to fit each of my moods and personalities. So, even though I am bald underneath, as I go on a healthy hair journey, thus engaging regularly hair maintenance for sustainability, wigs will continue to be my best friend, or not. It all depends on my mood that does, to where in some days they may change several times.
End Note…
I say this to say that, I know what I need to do to ensure my own happiness and do what is necessarily to leave a healthy and carefree life. Cutting my hair does not mean permanent baldness, kudos to those girls with short/bald craniums. I take my hat off to you for your bravery, as I have just joined that clan. Hair will grow back if you allow it and don’t continually cut it off. Baldness fits most people, if not all people. It is all about how you embrace it and rock it out. Hair does not define a person. What defines a person is their personalities and how they treat themselves and others. I am too also on the verge of a total cleanse, whereby getting all of the toxicin out of my life. I am on a lifelong healthy journey. Postive energy and vibe, and a life changing experience that would change my outlook and quality of life.
Do what makes you happy and nevertheless, you will never disappoint yourself.
Thanks to all followers and visitors who liked my post. I am on my way to greatness.
Here are a few things that you may want to know about me.
Name: Angela Pearce
Residential Destination: United States, Nevada but not my final destination, as I plan on traveling more to see the world.
What is my age?
HEY! Never ask a girl her age.
What is my profession? IT Consultant
Education? Masters in Science of Psychology, currently pursuing my Doctorate in Psychology with an emphasis in the Integration of Technology, Learning, and Psychology.
Getting a doctoral degree has always been a goal. I have been part of the doctoral program for two years now and my anticipated completion year is 2022-23. Given that the program that I am engaged in at Grand Canyon University (GCU) in Phoenix, AZ. GO LOPES!, the COVID-19 pandemic has not stopped my progress but only propelled me. I spend most of my days engaging in course work and research. This iterative and rigorous process is not easy as it takes time, dedication, self-discipline, and hard work.
What is my favorite Food? Indian Food – I can eat this everyday, but have made it an every Friday tradition.
What is my favorite Color?
Do I have children? Yep, 2.
What do I like to do for fun?
Yes, I’m a lame. I love to stay at home and do nothing, even if it means working on the computer, all day, cleaning, cooking, reading, and spending time with family. Home is where my heart is. What’s wrong with that? To me. Not-a-thing
What my favorite place to travel?
Truthfully, anywhere outside of the United States. As I really appreciate different cultures, eclectic music and cuisines, site seeing, shopping experiences, and just being a part of something different and unqiue.
What are your future goals and what is on your bucket list?
To establish a reputation as a scholar.
Become a voice for underrepresented and underserved population.
Become a college professor and obtain a tenure.
To travel more.
To increase my social network.
To give back to impoverished communites and those in dire need.
To help bridge the technological gaps between the digital divides and generations.
Continue to improve, mentally, spiritually, academically, and professionally.
Did I miss anything. What else do you want to know about me? leave me a comment and I will answer the question based on its appropriation.
Racial unrest and Injustice continues to cause and uproar in the entire nation. Professional sport teams are walking off playing fields to support the continued police brutality that continues to transpire and anti-humanistic behaviors that continue to plague our nation.
The vast majority hear the cry of blacks. How can they not after watching the life being pressed out of George Floyd, Breonna Taylor being shot in the privacy of her own home while in the bed asleep, and now Jacob Black, where a police offer emptied his entire clip into his back, paralyzing him, and also claim to be handcuffed to his bed while remaining in the hospital (see video: https://www.cnn.com/2020/08/27/us/jacob-blake-wisconsin-thursday/index.html).
Why Though? Why are so many people’s lips still sealed. Does this mean that you simply don’t care? Does this really mean that you don’t care about humanity? Does this really mean that you don’t care about Black Lives and only care about people you are familiar with? What is it? The question is on the table. Let’s talk. What is it abou Black people that makes you so terrified of them, to make you feel as though they are a threat? What is it about Blacks that makes you want to shoot them in the back. That makes you want to put a knee on Blacks (with a capital B) necks, resulting in their death where the world could see, as you pose so heroically. What is it about blacks that makes you feel that you can walk into their private santuaries in the wee hours of the night and shoot them down like they were nothing? What is this, is this a game of black purging or extermination, an elimination of the competition? Is this just another method of getting a notch on your belt? What has Black people done to YOU, that makes you fell that they are less than or unequal? Someone please clarify this for me, as I am all ears and willing to listen?
Lord Wipe Away These Tears
We are tired of crying for our Black brothers and sister. We are tired of being considered outcasts. We are tired of not being provided with similar housing, employment, insurance, and life opporunities as our white counterparts. It is mentally exhausting when getting pulled over by police for Driving While Black (DWB), Walking While Black (WWB), or Running While Black (RWB) or being redlined. The world was not built by the hands of white men. It was built by the hands of all men, mostly those of color. We all deserve a fair share of all that the world has to offer, and until all people (Blacks & Whites) start to aknowldge what is happening in this world, this now vividly anti-Colorism world, then the outcries will continue. Peaceful protests will persist, as people from distinctive ethnic and cultural backgrounds, beliefs, and values continue to show up and show out. The world is evolving and until people develop a revoluntary, as opposed to a retrospective, mindset, then these demonstrations will not subside. The Corona outbreak is pushing us into a novelty world, one that will substantially diminish the stressors and strains that Blacks have faced their entire lives. Yes, people will continue to hold their anti-attitudes and pro-white disposition, as all people are entitle to their own beliefs, and values. However, that does not mean that one has to disrespect, partake in physically contact with malicious intent, or cause others bodily harm or death. Having your own beliefs and values is part of the world’s molding. Again, just because you believe one thing and someone else beliefs anoter, does not give you a civil right to cause unjust nor unrest. We all should agree to disagree. I respect your outlook on certain life situations, and that should be reciprocated. End of story.
Most people may look at all that Blacks do and all that we say and simply say, it does not matter, as things are not going to be changed in their favor, and the world is not going to give then special treatment. See, this is the issue. Black people are not asking for special treatment, nor are they asking for the world to change based on special privileges or merits. Black people are standing up to the face of lack of diversity and inclusivity, simply to say that we are not different than any other person in this world. Yes, our skin tones and hair textures may be different, but these are unique characteristics that we all should appreciate. Furthermore, we all have developed a stereotype of phsysical characteristics and behaviors. But, when you examine the situation, wherein, stepping back to see the whole picture, all of these biases and prejudices starts at home.
It starts in an individuals living and learning environment. Children talk on the attitudes of their parents becuase they have not entered into a world where they can have personal experiences. So, if parents are biased, the children will be as well. If school teachers are biased, then they may teach such behaviors to their students. If a persons friends feel that it would be funny to bully or dehumanize another individual then both parties will engage in such behavior even if the other person do not agree with it. The same goes for relationships. Women are more likely to take on the attitudes of their romantic partners, even if it goes agains their moral judgment or compass. This does not necessary mean being anti-colorists, this means taking on any anti- or pro-attitude of a given partner. What does this mean? This mean that we have conform the significance of interpersonal relationships, even if it means looking friends and gaining those that you “tolerate.”
Parents or not, children should be taught to love one another, regardless of a persons identity. We all know better. This mean that we all have the mental and physical capacity to DO BETTER and BE BETTER. Children are our future, and if this racial unrest and unjust nonsense do not stop now, in another 57 years, people from all diverse backgrounds will still be marching on Capital Hill in Washington DC in the same manner that Martin Luther King Jr. did. In the same way that people are doing today, on Friday August 28, 2020. We will continually have the same dreams, the same hope, and the same equality aspirations, but until those dream-stoppers and nightmare inducers sleep, many nights will continue to be filled with horror and terror.
A Strong Support System
We all must stand together. We all must walk together. We all have to run together in order for change to happen. We are not asking for any favors or monetary gifts. We are simply asking everyone to lift their voices so that we all are provided with the chance of experiences equality in all aspects of the world we live in and call home. We must continually fight and build a support system no force can break down.
Au'Pearce 