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  • Happy birthday honey

    Today, I say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my husband, Ericโ€”the love of my life.

    The one human being who will forever have my heart. 

    I send these birthday wishes hoping and praying that today is one of the most happiest days of your life and that you spend this day with all persons with which you have established quality connections. 

    I know you are still within and around me, protecting, balancing, guiding, and grounding me. Your everlasting presence is what I live for. Knowing you are still by my side, I will continue to celebrate your birthday and the day I have proclaimed your day. Today, you get to do any and everything you choose, even if it means doing nothing at all. 

    Today, I love you more than I loved you yesterday, and my love for you strengthens each second, minute, and hour of the day. I will never forget and cherish the time we shared.

    For most, birthdays are another special day, but today, I celebrate your birthday differently. I celebrate your birthday selfishly, only wanting it to be you and me, not wanting to share you with anyone else. But because I am forced to share you with the universe, I still celebrate you and only you on this day. 

    I miss you with every fiber of my being. I am still in love with you and will forever love you wholeheartedly. Know that no one in this world could ever take your place.

    To my dearly and spiritually beloved husband, Happy Birthday.

  • happy 8th Wedding anniversary, to my husband!

    Today is my eighth wedding anniversary, and I still love my husband more than ever.

    I still remember the day we met some 11 years ago. 

    At the onset of our relationship, we developed a loving, trusting, and unbreakable bond that no one could ever penetrate. 

    Many wished us angst, heartbreak, despair, and emotional turmoil because most people thrived on seeing you miserable. 

    Envious and jealous creatures try to diminish the strength and character of our relationship, but we know our truths. We know our hearts, and now, we know our souls and spirits.

    I am forever grateful that God allowed me to be part of your life. I witnessed firsthand and substantially contributed to you reaching your fullest potential and achieving your highest points of happiness. I will never forget you telling me how it took me coming into your life for you to experience and feel authentic love, support, compassion, and dedication and that you would have never guessed in a million years that it would emanate from someone so different.  

    I will perpetually maintain our pact of me and you against the world and will protect you.

    I love you through both our tears and fears. 

    I will forever love you beyond the skies and into the heavens. 

    I will forever cherish your touch, laugh, the sound of your voice, and lovemaking.

    I will forever cherish your cuddles, sweet kisses, desire for flesh-to-flesh contact, and handholding even while we overlap in the bed beside each other. 

    I feel you holding me and watching over me while I lay sleeping. 

    I feel your existence everywhere I go. I feel your protection.

    I see you pacing back and forth in your office. 

    To my husband, you will always be my everything. You will always have my heart and every piece of me. 

    If God would honor my wishes and bartering, I would give up everything.

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    I genuinely love and miss you. However, I know you never left me. I just wish you would appear from time to time so that I can see your amazingly handsome face.

    To my husband, today I wish you a happy wedding anniversary and pray that you remain happy and at peace and surrounded by only people who love and care about you. 

    Tell everyone I said hello and I will see you soon.

  • Mirror! Mirror!

    When you stare in the mirror, can you describe the person who stares back at you?

    The bigger question is, does the person staring back at you personify who you are?

    If the person staring back at you told you the truth about who you are or suggested that you were to the fairest of them all, are you willing to accept that truth? Or would you instead willfully move through life blinded by your own truths?

    Life will never let you forget that there will come a defining moment when you are forced to face the person who stares back at you, as you will inevitably have to accept your good, bad, and ugly truths. 

    While there is a saying that zebras cannot change their stripes, I beg to differ. As Zebras mature, their stripes change and become more pronounced and profound.

    Having said that, when facing your truth, you have to decide whether you accept or deny that truth. You are the only person who can choose whether to hone in on the good or embrace the possibilities of overcoming and changing the bad, ugly, or wicked you, transforming them into the good.

  • Remembering

    MISSING MY HUSBAND WHO DIED QUOTES โ€“ AbcRadio.fm

    Today, July 24, 2024, two years later, I am still hurting and suffering. My heart remains in millions of pieces, damaged beyond repair. My blood pressure remains elevated. Many days, I walk about like I am doing ok, but internally, my mind, body, and soul are a whirlwind filled with chaos, anxiety, stress, and depression. I find myself wanting to cry all the time, but I suppress my emotions and hold back the tears because I have so many people depending on me. Though it is difficult at times, and I sometimes slip due to heightened levels of frustration, I must remain cognitively and psychologically astute and demonstrate emotional intelligence.

    Since July 24, 2022, I have been holding my breath. Every day, I feel like I am underwater, drowning, unable to come up for air because the moment I think it is time to breathe, something else lands in my lap, causing me to submerge underwater again and again. 

    Since day one, I have had to continually fight unnecessary battles and deal with toxic, self-important, callous, and gluttonous individuals. I also have to navigate the various personalities, emotions, and behaviors.

    Since day one, I have not had time to myself, as there has been no time for disassociation or self-removal. 

    Most days, my heart beats so rapidly and hard that I feel like it will jump out of my chest. 

    Why? Because I hurt. I continue to experience immense pain. Any person who has ever lost a spouse understands the pain and suffering I feel. For those who have never experienced such loss, you will never understand, and I do not wish this feeling on you, even if you were my worst enemy. 

    Why We Should Process Grief All The Way Through Life

    I have found that, depending on the strength of your connection, grieving has different levels. For me, I experience complicated grief. I will never accept or recover from such loss. I still bargain and barter with God. I am still in denial, as I am sure my husband will return home one day in physical form, especially as I know heโ€™s never left my side. I will continue to live and navigate my life as though heโ€™s still part of it. I still seek permission from my husband. I am angry that he left me so suddenly. I experience severe bouts of anxiety and depression, where all I want to do is stay home behind closed doors with the covers over my head, but this new life has denied me the opportunity to grieve. Even today, I have not grieved fully. Truthfully, I have not grieved at all, as I am still in a state of shock. 

    When I lost you, I lost half of me.

    Therefore, I will never be whole again. I believe in the saying that God will not put more on you than you can bear. I just pray to God that s/he continues to give me the strength to keep moving because the moment I can breathe and standstill, it will be the moment that my entire being will crumble.

    I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

    I'm Not a Widow, I'm your Forever Wife: Grieving Journal (Losing Your  Husband, Spouse, Life Partner (Grief Support Recovery for Coping With  Bereavement/Mourning/Loss/Death) - Publishing, Nurture: 9781724527721 -  AbeBooks