Stillness

Stillness is defined as a moment when you find yourself surrounded by unparalleled movement, and inundated with voluminous noises, screams, and chatters, but still, you hear nothing and see no one.

Stillness is when you find yourself sitting amongst a crowd, but for some reason, you cannot detect or become blind to movement, or the movement does not matter or is unimportant. 

Stillness is when you wish for the world to stand still.

You wish to be alone at a specific moment in time, and you do not care about the company or presence of others. 

Even though today and most days, I sit amongst a crowd where I can witness other people living their best lives, I cannot help but feel the stillness and frozenness of being mentally stuck, unavailable, and unable to progress in life or move forward. I remain stuck in the era where it was only my husband and I, the only thing that mattered and what still matters to this day. 

Today, I find myself positioned in a significantly despondent life

Why? Because I find myself living a life where it is only me, sitting amongst a world filled with noise and movement, but all I hear and see is simply, stillness.

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